> Master Pierre wrote to me to go back to the club. I told him I wouldn"t go. We don"t write to each other anymore. I"m writing to you for the same purpose. I don"t want to continue.
> About the leaking of yellow stuff from my peehole, it didn"t stop. I had to see the doctor and go make a blood test. It sems I got a sexual disease I caught last week at the club. I had to do the HIV test too, it is negative but I have to do it again in 3 months because you can"t know for sure right after it seems. The doctor gave me a strong shot of something and it"s gone now, but HIV is still very likely it seems. Because the doctor told me that if you swallow cum it"s like if you get fucked.
> So, that"s all. i"ll stop all that. I don"t exactly know what I will do with the other people. Maybe i"ll keep on doing some of the tasks I"m asked to do from time to time but i"d rather stop all at once. Even drinking my piss at night, it was something I quite liked actually but it"s a bad thing.
> So, that"s all. Thank you for taking some interest in me these last few months.


I waited a while to reply. I am not mad at you. I understand you are frightened. How did your std test come back?
M


i would understand if you were mad. I showed I can"t be trusted.
> my HIV test came back negative for the moment but I have to do another one in a couple of month. And the leaking is completely gone now.


Would you like to earn my trust back?
M


> I"m not sure what to say. i"d like to earn your trust back but I know I can"t promise you to do whatever you say. Not anymore. What I did lately disgusts me and still scares me, I think of it everyday.


Well, you could start by telling me what you really don"t want to do
anymore. If it is acceptable to me we could go from there. I know you really liked a lot of my tasks. Many of them were simple and I am willing to bet you still do some of them. Send me an email and tell the stuff you really hated and which ones made you feel like a good submissive bitch.
M


>i can"t really say I liked any of your tasks. The one that didn"t really bothered me was to drink the daily glass of piss, I didn"t liked it at first but got used to it after a while. The thing I had the most trouble with was to work on my urethra.


Ok. I will leave your piss tube alone. I would like you to keep drinking
the piss though. Maybe we could do some more piss work...like food
preperation with it and such....what do you think?
M

Just a note to see how you are doing. Have you settled down yet? Are you feeling better about your place on the food chain yet?
Let me know..
M

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At that time there was a pause of a few months in our relationship.

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> Dear Master Mike,
> I apologize deeply for the way I behaved. I tried to changed my life, I felt it was what I needed, but it didn"t work. I now know I need the abuse
> and that I"m not worth anything. I need to be in pain and to feel
> humiliated, I"m not a normal boy, I never will be.


No shit you stupid fuck. You should be ashamed of yourself. How do I know
that you are not going to act up again? What happened to your boyfriend?
Write back and answer these questions and I will consider entertaining
myself with you again cunt.
M


Dear Master Mike,
> Thank you for your answer. I feel ashame, I really do. I was
> really doubting and just at that time I met this boyfriens who was really nice with me. He took really good care of me and I really thought that I could have the kind of life other boys have, that in fact I was normal.
> But everything turned out wrong. He learned about my previous life. The first time I persuaded him it was not true but then it seems he knew more than I thought and finally he showed me one of the video I made. He took it really bad. And finally, after some weeks we broke up, he said he couldn"t stay with me thinking of all the sick shit I did before. I"ve been really depressed for some time, not knowing what to do. Until I came to realize that maybe I was wrong to think I was normal, that it was the contrary that was right. I don"t want to lie to you, I still have a lot of doubts.
> But I started to think a lot about all this period of abuse lately, and I feel a kind of reconfort in it. At that time I was not happy, just like now, but at least I was feeling useful in a way by entertaining you. I didn"t realize at that time but I do now, that everything you made me do was to make me realize I was made to serve and take abuse, and that I have to fully accept it. I understand that in a way you were trying to help me, and I am ashamed I refused that. It"s still difficult for me to admit that I was able to drink piss everyday or worse, to eat my shit. I know I did it and at the same time it seems like another life. But it was a life where at least I felt useful and even if it was disgusting I know I was pleased to do it for you. I"d like to get that back, to let you help me see the real me.



Cunt,
The only way you are ever going to find any peace of mind is to accept your position in life as being submissive to others. Total submission is where you will find contentment. You need to live with an Alpha male and serve his needs without consideration for yourself. That includes having other wants and desires. You may be miserable for a time wishing it were not so but it is. Some life forms have to be servants to keep the world in balance. Your service may well keep a boy who is not such a little cunt from becoming one against his own will simply because of physical stature or
economic circumstances. Your service to Alpha males (and it may well mean serving many Alphas at their whim) is something a cunt like you should take very low key (as in never show it) pride in. Your pain gives pleasure to those who can demand it. Your humiliation brings pleasure to those who witness it and joy to the truly dominant Alphas who inflict it. Genetically your balls are meant to breed. Your reality is that your balls are there as a point of pain administration to show your total lack of stature in our
male society. My balls by contrast are used to seed cunts like you thereby completely taking away any hope of true manhood for pathetic cunts like you.
If you are not happy it is because you have not yet totally submitted your life. Cum and piss are not just the secretions from an Alpha male"s cock. They should be viewed by you as a gift from a Man that helps you maintain your equilibrium. I am taking a lot of my time with you cunt. Try not to fuck it away on whims again. If taking sperm in your belly or fuck hole makes you sick then take it as proof that you have truly served and embrace it. Get a shot if possible and continue your service....again your service
may keep a real Man from getting sick or infected. So for fucks sake step down to your place on the food chain and do your fucking job bitch. My patience is a gift that does not keep giving for eternity. Treat Me and My desires with respect from now on or you will be flailing around in the dark being miserable for the rest of you cuntish existence.
Send me a video of you drinking three large tumblers of piss as a start of your punishment. Do it soon or don"t bother me again. You already know what I expected of you and you contacted me again so this should not come as a surprise. Piss will be consumed every fucking day of the rest of your life. The sooner you start the sooner you start getting happy. More pain is in your future.
M


Sorry for the wait but I had to save some piss to be able to fill 3
> glasses.
> It took me more than 40 minutes but I drank all of it. I had never drank
> so much in a row before, my stomach don"t feel very good. But I understand it
> is a punishment and I deserve it. Thank you Master Mike.


You are welcome cunt. You are by NO means out of hot water yet bitch boy.
The next one involves a bunch of bananas. Do you have a problem with buying a bunch of bananas? You once told me you had a strict limit that you would not purchase even the slightest item to comply with tortures. So let me know if you want to buy six bananas. I laughed my ass off evertime you looked miserable in that video clip. Was your belly nice and bloated?
M


Good boy. Get six full size bananas. Peel them. Lubricate your cunt with crisco or cooking oil. Start stuffing. One banana at a time into your shit hole. All six. I don"t have to tell you what to do next. Shit the bananas into a bowl and eat them...right after you piss into the bowl. It does not have to be a huge amount of piss...just enough to flavor the bananas. Get used to it because your punishment is going to go on for a while cuntface.
Piss is going to be added to almost all the food you consume at home. LOL. You fucking cunt. You have a lot to atone for. When I am done with you, you will know your place is groveling on th ground at an Alpha males feet. For that matter every male animal is superior to you fuckface.Excellent fuckface. I am pleased by the instant obedience to my wish. It is funny as shit to think of you sitting around with all those bananas stuffed up your cunt waiting to produce some nice soft serve dessert for your continued humiliation and My Alpha amusement. It is too bad you are so far away. I could train you properly to service my needs and those of my friends pig. Your suffering would be endless and most amusing. Does this submission give your peace? Do you feel you are atoning for trying to be an
equal when you obviously are not? How many times, I wonder, have you looked a true Male in the eyes when I had told you not to? I will never know for sure, so I will have to make sure you get the message this time cunt.
M


That is very good pig. You followed your intructions to the letter. How did it taste? Hope you liked it because, as I stated before, if you want to truly please me you will be pissing to some degree on most of your food.
Not always a full load of piss. Sometimes it may only be a little, but the object is going to be to break you down so that no matter what an Alpha Male demands of you, you will obey him without thought for yourself or hesitation.



> I can"t really say the submission gives me peace yet. I feel more tormented but it"s just been 2 days, I"m sure it will come. I will piss on my food
>each time I"m alone. I understand your goal to break me down in order to erase any hesitation I may have in front of an Alpha Male. I really want to be a good boy, I"d hate to act badly in front of an Alpha Male. I think only once I am broken down, will I find peace and accept what I have to accept witout resistance or too much thinking. The begining will be difficult but I"m really motivated to train hard. As for the bananas they tasted more like shit than piss, I should have made sure before that there was no more shit in my hole. But I"ll have to get used to that taste again anyway, so it"s not a bad thing I guess.



Listen to that small voice inside of you cunt boy. The one that is urging you to embrace your torment and give into what ever nasty degredation the real Men have for you. The voice that is urging you to find a way to serve.
Sometimes you will here another little voice urging you to rebel as you have in the past...that voice must be silenced and eradicated. Will you walk thru life with your eyes cast slightly downward? Will you stop wearing underwear to mark yourself as a slut and make your worthless hole more easily accessible to those to whom you MUST submit? Will you tolerate the pain when a Man comes home frustrated from his job and beats you with a belt to ease his pent up rage? Will you someday be so submissive that when your
Master needs to piss you will immediately offer your mouth or cunt to Him?
Will you service your Master"s guests without a word of protest or a
moment"s hesitation? Will you someday find comfort in feeling Alpha sperm cleaning to the crevices of your worthless cunt hole, knowing that you have given your tortured rectum up to the pleasures of your betters?
I wonder about these things. I think of ways to take you down the path. Willingly? Kicking and screaming? I wonder. Oh well, life is not an adventure if you only stand on the sidelines of it.....LOL.
M


I started to stop wearing underwears today. As I told you once it makes me feel a little uncomfortable because you can see my dick and especially my balls along my leg. But I remember what you told me once, that the purpose of wearing no underwear was to keep me in my place and embarassing me in front of my betters. I"m still a little afraid about the path I"m taking but I"ll do my best.



Good bitch. Your humiliation is important to both Me and you. Give up your desire to control your destiny cunt. I want everyone who looks at you to know you are a fucking worthless piece of shit. Straight males and women ill look down on you for your obvious lack of manners and gay Alphas will leer at you and know you are available for their pleasure. Send me a picture of what your package looks like in your jeans. I think you are whining about nothing faggot. If I were there I would be torturing the shit out of your worthless cunt balls and making them swell to show off even more. Don"t forget...NO LOOKING ANY MALES IN THE EYE. In situations where
you meet someone else at a choke point like a doorway or narrow hall or passage you MUST always yield to the other person and put your head down when you do it. You should already know this, but I am going to reinforce it here right now....ANY man who wants to fuck you or wants you to blow him gets what he wants WITHOUT ANY resistance or hesitancy on your part. You are a cunt boy from now until the fucking day you leave this earth. It is what God put you here to be and you MUST embrace and acknowledge it totally.
When I finish with you you will conduct your life like a fucking whipped dog.
Are you drinking your piss every day? Have you been adding at least some piss to all the food you prepare at home? How often are you mastubating?
Write me with answers and comments on everything I have stated here. Also, send the pic I intructed you to and a vid of you eating piss flavored food from a plate on the floor without using your hands...like a dog.
M



It feels very weird to look down and put my head down when I meet a male.
> I mean some of them just pass without noticing me but some others really see I put my head down. The worst is when I have to go buy cigarettes or bread, I"m really in front of them and in this case they have to notice. They must think I"m retard. Something really bad happened yesterday, I was in an elevator and 2 guys entered so I lowered my head, I think they noticed I did this because of them. And then one of them asked me the time. I gave it to him without looking at him. I felt bad. When we went out of the elevator,
> I heard them laughing, I"m sure it was because of me. I feel very weak in this kind of situation, it"s difficult to behave like this in public, I feel so ashamed. It reminds me of a guy in my high school, we were always teasing him because he never spoke to anybody and he kept his head low. I never
> thought about that before but maybe he was a cunt boy like me. At least, by training every day to be more submissive like this, I feel more ready to the idea to let a male use my mouth or ass if the situation ever shows up.
> I"ve also been adding piss to my food. I managed to do it nearly every day. What I don"t know is if I have to also drink some "pure" piss like in a glass every day.
> I masturbate about 3 times a day. When I wake up, before going to sleep and usually another time in the evening. Is that ok ?
> On the video you can see that for lunch I ate a steak with rice and piss.
> I ate it like dog food on the floor without my hands.